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The following was borrowed from Winged Wolf's Home Page. If you have time, please visit and read more of the information offered, thanx.

This is an episode of my life, lasting about 10 years, which I don't usually like to discuss in great detail. However, it also seems to be a period of my life which people exhibit the most morbid curiousity about. With that in mind, I will give a brief overview of it. Sometime around age 13, I became a vampyr, of the type presented in detail on my web site. Over the next 10 years, I applied myself to discovering how and why this happened. I found the answer to how, but I will probably never know why. The description on my site of the procedure for removing the symbiont with the use of the device came from personal experience--this is how I became an "ex-vamp", and let me tell you, it hurt.

My fear at facing this was extreme. I had to write my friend a note, because I could not bring myself to speak the request out loud. The device itself was painless...the actual removal was a sudden, sharp pain. The real pain did not begin until after I got up, and went to bed. I was in a state of partial shock, trembling and dazed...the pain was a deep, dull ache spreading out from the center of my chest. I was able to sleep, I think, only because of the exhaustion of the shock to my system.

That pain lasted for a long time, accompanied by nerve spasms whenever there was energy movement around that area of my body. My sunlight sensitivity began to quickly fade after a matter of weeks, but the pain and nerve spasms remained for nearly 8 months, slowly fading. Today, I can charge that area with energy and experience no pain or nerve spasms from doing so.

For the most part, I am a completely different person from "Shadowalker". The memories of 10 years of being what I was remain with me, and will always color my life...but they are memories.